Saturday evening - just before leaving an unscheduled day of work.
Dear praying friends,
I am so grateful for your understanding and faithful prayer support. After working 12 emergency hours today, and leaning into Jesus' victory (which is already won!) , I have managed to stay just shy of the precipice that overlooks the bottomless pit of despair. It has been one of the toughest battles I've ever fought. In the last hour, God has revealed, finally, his plan for tomorrow.
Today I was a good soldier - by his grace alone, trust me! I did end up having to work today but I refused to give up hope that I would be able to go to Dad's birthday celebration tomorrow, and I refused to let go of my joy in the middle of my shipwrecked plans for today. Only, I'm sure, because there was an army of people praying for me, including you.
With a great amount of twisting around of peoples' lives and schedules, God has provided enough staff to cover the day tomorrow in the program where I work. Praise God! I am in awe of his goodness. He kept me today. I was staring into the Slough of Despair, but he kept me from sliding into it. And now I am past the danger point - this time. His victory tastes so sweet that I never ever want to go back to my more familiar negative, defeatist, and grumbling attitude again. In the midst of it all, He has been so good to me, sending many blessings my way and giving some very precious memories of his goodness and unfailing provision. It has been worth the fight.
Praise God. I perceive that some really big giants fell today. There are some left, but when Negativity fell with a thud, the others all seemed to shrink in fear and take a few steps back.
Onward and upward. Through, not around. Praise God!